Duele...

...Y hoy me voy a dormir con lagrimas en la cara, justo hoy que pensé que todo sería mejor... Mi corazón adolece, siente frío...

Here I come...

Just because the road ahead is long, is no reason to slow down. Just because there is much work to be done, is no reason to get discouraged. It is a reason to get started, to grow, to find new ways, to reach within yourself and discover strength, commitment, determination, discipline.

The road ahead is long and difficult, and filled with opportunity at every turn. Start what needs starting. Finish what needs finishing. Get on the road. Stay on the road. Get on with the work.

Right now you're at the beginning of the journey. What a great place to be! Just imagine all the things you'll learn, all the people you'll meet, all the experiences you'll have. Be thankful that the road is long and challenging, because that is where you'll find the best that life has to offer.

It's crazy how you're killing me...

So... First blog post... kinda exciting :)

I decided to create this after I listened to "Say" by John Mayer, I guess I just have to say what I need to say, better way than a blog no one will ever see? don't think so :P

Today I've been listening to music, and I really mean listening and not hearing, I went really deep into song's lyrics, trying to analyze and understand 'em, I came across with this song by Jason Mraz, yup first post and i'm already talking about Mraz, it is called O. Lover and I found 2 great lines in it:
-"You're the only way my time is measured"
-"it's crazy how you're killing me"
Wow those little phrases gave me a hole afternoon of thinking and a bunch of freaky feelings, thinking about what you may think... about him, those words are exactly what I'm feeling today, at least that's how I'd resume it. Long story short, I'm falling in love and he's all I'm thinking about, I count every minute just to talk, write or see him again, the deal is that I'm in love with a guy I shouldn't be in love with, in the story of my life he plays the hero and the villain it's that beautiful smile that makes me feel on paradise, those eyes where I get lost at and that show me a beautiful soul but scare me full of that mystery I cannot scape from, the mystery that keeps me wondering what he really feels inside, does he love me back?, is he playing me as an easy level of any of his video games?... When did love get so complicated? When did it start to feel like committing a crime? Is it even a crime? 'cause if it is that way then I'm totally guilty, and where's the prison? 'cause there's no worse prison than myself.

So hell yeah, it's crazy how he's killing me and he doesn't even know, (damn I write way to much commas), he kills me when he talks so poetically and tells me how much he adores me, he kills me when he holds me so carefully like I'm the only one he cares about, he kills me when he looks at me and stares without opening his mouth but blowing my mind with thousands of words, he kills me when he stays quite 'cause sound gets so loud, he kills me when he talks just because of his voice, he kills me when he dances so randomly, he kills me when he sings because well just because he sings, he kills me when he makes me smile 'cause he takes out of me the most truthful smile I have, he kills me when he makes me laugh 'cuz he doesn't even try hard and I'm already laughing, he kills me when he says I'm precious 'cuz he makes me wanna believe it, he kills me when he kisses my head 'cause I can feel that simple kiss right in my heart, he kills me when he says he wants to be with me, he kills me just by being him; but also he kills me when he says he has to change and he'll try but don't promise me anything, he kills me when he feels down and ask for advice 'cause I don't know what to tell him, he kills me when he talks so sweet to other girls, he kills me when he leaves, he kills me when he says goodbye, he kills me while he walks away, he kills me while I try to write things about him... But he mostly kills me loving him, yes, it's just crazy how he's killing me.

I should probably say this all to him, instead I'm posting it on here, pathetic, I know...

I have way too much thoughts in my head but it's annoying how I cannot find the words or the right order to place them into a good text, I've never been good at writing but then again I'm not expecting anyone to read this... whatever... It's not that bad

I'm willing to write everyday about what I honestly feel... We'll see where this journey takes me to ;)

Love
*Cinthy